i am going to catch flight on 25th of August and arrive in Christchurch in noon on 26th of August.

 

i am going to NZ or i am back to NZ?

 

i will face a lot choices... and unknowns...

 

sometims i am scared... of making decisions by myself... which could influence my whole life... and nobody can help...

 

i may regret...i may lose it forever...and never get it back...

 

i need to grow up... but will i? when? after being hurt seriously?

 

i just want to be myself... why that basic principle can be very hard sometimes...

 

you may need to give it up for something else... does that worth it?

 

finally, it will be your turn to make a decision...i cant do it now... maybe later...later...later... dont know when...but one day...